Sleep Paralysis

I am experiencing sleep paralysis. It feels like I am on an extreme amount of laughing gas. I am so drugged that I think I have taken a pill that will paralyze me for life. I mentally groan, wondering what is happening to me and what this sensation is.

I conclude this is how it feels to be asleep every night. This is why my dream self does not recognize impossible scenarios; I am too drugged to question reality. It is unsettling that I become this loony every night only to forget it by morning.